Distance not by the miles, it counts by the heart

Time zones different

But we're still looking at the same sky

Well I realise that actually the distance has brought us closer

We'll do things we never did.

Awesomeful, actually.

 I like this, its nice =)

Well altho its kinda short, but we still get to talk.

Take care ma babes

We'll soar high

Proudness of the girls.

Thank god I had you girls 

XOXO

<3

=)

Counting down the days

After sending Ning off, I started to think whats next

one less person to brag with

one less person to hang out with

Hmm I'm next to leave?

In like 18 days?

I'm kinda fed up with all the paperwork and documents =/

Its a new beginning for life

a new lease of hope

I wish I'd see what I want

Deep down it still hurts. 

Because its so deep down, nobody would see it

Maybe they would think that I never cared, but actually I cared, so much

that I hurt myself so badly. The heart is now scarred

Well I hope momma would be happier w/out me making her mad =)

I want hope

I want a change. 

I wana feel again how it is to strive hard

this sloth and topple

killing me right to the core

I seriously don't know how to feel

I was starting to enjoy my times on this island

and now, its time to leave again

I don't know where this will take me to

Maybe I won't get to stay here anymore

Well, its unpredictable, anything can happen

What can I say,

Well this would be a life changing experience.

I don't know what to expect.

But I know that I'll surely miss. Literally everything.

My lappie is gona be the only loyal friend that will follow me there

I wish I will miss the freedom of driving more than you

I wish I could let everything go

I wish I wouldn't hold back in whatever I do

I wish to be the best I could

I wish to be excellent. If I deserve to

I hope I will appreciate the distance

Then I would see things from a spectator's point of view

Somehow, I would feel an awesome lot better

Trained not to let anybody see my tears

trained to take everything down your throat

I hope I can cope.

A new lease of hope

A new life.

I will welcome it with a big smile on my face 

Love life =) 

This is for my Ning Ning :')

This is dedicated for my bestie :')
The skype just now was. Well, kinda emotional.
I didn't expect to feel like that la Ning
You been so far. It ain't the same wei.
Although we've been away a while after high school
*those days were missed badly like bringing phone and mp3 to school just for fun*
Go toilet together remember?
Hide liquid paper? haha..
So far wei
3/4 a globe? T.T
Go there become feipo nevermind ah don't become skinny skinny
later i cannot recognise you how ah =(
If you wana eat then eat la go there don't eat what you wana do wei
Remember to keep in touch la wei whatsapp viber whatever la
update me always babe
anything you can always share with me, and us <3
We'll be right here. Right? =)

Its far. Take care.

We'll be stepping into a new stage in our lives, everything changes. 
But well, we ain't. Right?

All the best, to all of us =) Cheers.

Words I write

I always thought that I have a gift for words
I always expressed in simple words.
Easy yet effective.
I decide I will continue writing.
Here, if not anywhere else.
Meaningful lyrics is what I always search for in a song.
I thought I could write them myself too,
well who couldn't, right? =)

Dear Daddy

Its been five years I haven't see you.
For a long period of time, I did hate you alot.
You wrecked my home
You hurt mummy
You made us leave.
You made us suffer
We have to spend thrift
We had to flee
I adapted to a new home momma gave me
It was peaceful and nice. We were very happy.
Momma is awesome. A very capable woman.
But she had no one to lean on.
We, children were too young to depend on.
She did everything herself, like literally.

I couldn't change anything.
Now this is fate.
But what if you were a decent person
What if you never made momma cry
What if you never mixed with the fools.
What if you're the best dad you can be
You made brother hate you so much,
I guess he wouldn't accept you again this lifetime.
What if you were always there for me
and not tease me all the time.
I don't like you teasing me with stupid names all the time.

You could have gave me the best home.
You could have been the best dad ever,
and gave me anything I wanted.
You'd made mum happy.
You could, but you didn't.

Right now

Its been awhile since everything felt right anymore
I don't even know whats your plan
Or how you feel anymore.
Its like walking down a road I can't decide on where to go
I'm like been leashed. Following and reacting to situations that appear
It wasn't this way.
I was lost, I was terrified. I was depressed. I didn't know what to do
I told myself it would be over soon
I wish I left earlier.
I even wished that, I haven't met you
But I appreciate the times we had together.
Those were the best times of my life.
I know you did, but now I don't.
I'm lost babe.
What is it that changed your mind
Can't I do anything to make it right anymore?
You were the deciding one. Not me
I'm not stupid either, you thought I don't know much
Actually I kinda know everything.
If you fell for her, what I can say is maybe you're just dumb
or just, you still wanna have fun. Thats all
But if you still wanna keep me, you'd better
If you don't make yourself clear, I'm moving on babe
Now I don't see why I need to leave my heart here
Unless if you do something to convince me, I would babe.
You just don't wanna commit. I don't see why.
You're a full grown adult, maybe haunted by your past.
Or maybe you really love her. Then I'm wrong and I'm sorry.
I wanna apologise if I did say something offensive.
I just wanna know the reason.
If its fate, well babe, fate ain't the determinant. We'll just have to work for it
The distance is just something we fear.
You just, don't be stupid. LOL
If you ever get to read this, please do tell me.
I don't see the need to tell this to many people.
It's not their concern either.
I hate people seeing me as a weakling and soft.
I hate when people look down at me.
I am haunted by my past also.
I thought I could let it go, but I guess I never will
I think you know whats best for us. I respect your decision whatsoever.
Or maybe I just complicated a very simple matter.
Then I apologise and just ignore whatever.
Now I feel better, writing this out.
This is a decision made by my instinct.
I hope it ain't wrong and disastrous for any of us.
Well, you will still my best buddy ever. I love you, as a close friend =)