This is my story

Recalling those days in primary school, I wasn't even aware about what studying is. My UPSR results suck. I couldn't get into a good class.
Though they said they did not assign any class as a 'bad' class, me and my fellow same-fate friends felt that we were seriously discriminated. 1P12-1P8 is first band class, others (1P7-1P1) are at the same rank. The whole system goes like this. The larger the number the better. Me and my same-fate friends were placed at 1P1. wth we had 4As for UPSR why the heck do you have to put us there???

The best part is, 1P1 is all like the belakang class, only 20+ people if not mistaken. There are quite a number of students from peralihan last year. Yeah the bad bad students.
I sat with my same-fate friend. We were like so wana get out of here. We want to end this. And I am the only prefect of the class there were times that I did not know what to do when my classmates break the rules in front of me. Forgodsakes I close one eye all the time. If not I guess they will beat me up. I was class monitor even before I became a prefect. I ditched being class monitor to be prefect.

Well the system in AMC is different than in other schools I guess. You're ranked with the number of As in your subjects, then CGPA, not purata. Damn we worked darn hard. The next year me and my friend were placed in 2P11. Thats the first year in my life that I have been in a first band class. That is when my life really started. Seriously.
I still managed to be in first band class. The next year I had to transfer to Penang. I wanted to go to PCGHS but because they refer to my UPSR result and not my form2 result, they rejected me. I went to the principal of SMJK Heng Ee. He saw the name of my ex-school, he immediately took me in without even looking at my result slip. Frankly, I didn't really like the school at first. The first week was awful. I had no koku to look forward to. And I still have my determination with me, the one I picked up when I was in form1. I continued to score in PMR and SPM. Well, for me, I guess I was lucky. But they keep telling me that its not about the luck. I know I am not that brilliant actually, I know there is one day that I will meet my limit.

I ditched studying college 2 weeks after enrollment and went to do STPM. That's tough for me, and everyone too. Maybe that is where I met my limits. It is still, now. I will just have to keep coping with it, whether I like it or not. Its still a part of growing up you see. I will just take it as it is. I have faith there's still a bright future for me out there, if it is really fated that way, I will just take it. Its not within my will either.
I guess its the beginning of the cycle. Be put down. Then grow to be stronger. Like in UPSR.


I had a dream come true once. I believe dreams will come true. Though not this time, some time in the future, I will rise to be somebody.

Just to share heh.

 三分鐘就知道誰是你最愛的人? (98%的準確率)   一個很準的心理測試：按下面的步驟一步一步做，不要作弊，否則你

的希望會落空（用３分鐘完成）發送這個留言的人說：她的願望在十

分鐘內變成現實，記住：不要有欺騙行為。這個戲的結果非常有趣，

注意：按順序往下讀，不能跳躍地往下讀（只要花３分鐘，值得一試

）

 請首先拿一枝筆和一張紙   

 一、首先，在一列中寫下１到１１的號碼（即１、２、３、４、５、

６、７、８、９、１０、１１） 

二、在號碼１和２的旁邊，寫下你所想的任意兩個數字  

三、在號碼３和７的旁邊，寫下任意兩個異性的名字。（注意：不要跳躍的向下看，不要作弊哦）                                                                                                                     

四、在號碼４、５、６的旁邊，寫下朋友或親戚的名字幕（不要有欺

騙行為）  

五、在號碼８、９、１０、１１的旁邊，寫下４首歌的名字。   

六、最後，許一個願。   

  結果：   

１. 你必須把這個遊戲告訴給（號碼２旁邊寫下的數字）個人。   

２. 號碼３是你所愛的人。   

３. 號碼７是你所喜歡的但不能與之相伴的人。   

４. 號碼４是你最關心的人。   

５. 號碼５是非常瞭解你的人。   

６. 號碼６是你重要的人。   

７. 號碼８的歌適合號碼３的人。   

８. 號碼９的歌適合號碼７的人。   

９. 號碼１０的歌最能代表你的想法。   

１０. 序號１１的歌是你對生活的感受。   讀完這個結果之後，在一個小時之內轉載到2個論壇，如果照此做，

了你的許願就會變成現實，否則，就會事與願違。

I feel its kinda accurate heh :)

no harm trying yo <3

have fun!

我发现 I realise

我只是想要找个人谈天
 I just need somebody to talk to

就是那么简单
Thats all

蔡健雅 - 思念 KTV Version

你管我 我就是这样

我喜欢发白日梦
我喜欢做我喜欢的事情
我喜欢你
我喜欢注意别人不会注意的
我喜欢放空  但其实我不是在放空的
我喜欢弄你笑
我喜欢大笑
我喜欢告诉你你的不好  别讨厌我好吗
我喜欢与朋友谈笑
我喜欢疯狂
我喜欢神经质的我
我喜欢吃冰淇淋
我喜欢我的床
我喜欢一个人的时候
但我也喜欢一起的时候
我喜欢回想，好的不好的
我喜欢分享
我喜欢你的笑容
我喜欢你向我诉苦的时候
我喜欢我的家
但我也喜欢道外面去
我喜欢青色  但我不讨厌其他颜色
我喜欢收藏   那些是我的回忆
我喜欢看蓝天  无限的想象
我喜欢我的头发

无论如何
我就是这样

你管我啊

你看不见

我这句话的背后

我心在想什么

脑海中的画面

你看不见

我变态

ignore 我吧

但我希望你管我

又是你 ：）

跟你
很舒服


也许你不懂吧

因为你都不大在意

那一天不懂怎样遇见你

现在  很舒服


但我想要的  不只是这些而已

Today

Today I went back to school and gave lesson to my juniors
It has been a while since I've seen them
I love them lah :)
But somehow they dissapointed me :(
I really hope they know what I am trying to tell them
They are still not in the right mode and attitude yet
Maybe they don't see things as I do
*sighs* nevermind I had times when I don't get what my seniors and my teachers are trying to tell me either
There is still a little bit more time
I hope
They don't take things that easily anymore
I hope
They grow up faster
I hope
They can see things more seriously, see further not the present only
Its a matter of whether they WANT it or not
Anybody can do it if they want it badly
Attitude
Guys please realise :)
I am here to help
Whether you want to be helped or not :)
Jiayous

Hope & Pray

I have never wanted something so badly
I didn't know why
I never thought that I would fail achieving it
Until today I am still confident
I don't know what made me feel that way
I will know whether I succeeded--at the end of this month
Another D-day
gahhh how many d-days could I have
I am seriously a bit tired.
Will I make it?
Will I make the people around me proud?
Will I be proud of myself?
Seriously I cannot do anything about it anymore
I did my best
What else can I possibly do to increase my chances?
I would do just anything
If only, I can make it
I hope so. I pray hard.
It is a dream that I hope would come true
I imagined that if it really came true, it would be the happiest day of my life
From the first day I stepped into the warzone
I knew and I am clear what I want.
Now war is over, its up to them. And my effort i put in.
hope all goes well. hope for the best =)

P.S:有人人间蒸发了 XD